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His Act of Love {Senji x Reader}

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          ‘He forfeited… Why on earth did he forfeit?’

           You pondered this question non-stop the moment he gave his words of withdrawal in the ring.

           The memory of the moment playing over and over again in your head as you lay in bed and stare up at the ceiling.



                                                                       ~



           “Welcome Ladies and Gentlemen! It’s time for another splattered filled episode of… Carnival Corps!” The booming voice of the announcer shouts enthusiastically. “If you wanna watch Deadmen duke it out, we’re the only game in town! The rules are simple! The fight’s over when someone’s incapacitated or dead! And now, meet your Deadmen!”

           Right above, the spotlights turn on and shine on you and Senji as you step out of your cages.

           “An old hand at hemoglobin homicide, Crow! And our Deadman Wonderland beauty, the lovely (F/n)!”

           As Crow and you step forward, the two of you lock eyes. His brows are furrowed and his jaw shut tight. He stops walking and looks to the ground, balling his hands into fists. You stop in your tracks as well when you realize that his face isn’t one of intensity for the match but instead one of frustrated sadness.

           This takes you aback. The two of you have been looking forward to this fight for a while now. He had been training you very effectively. You had been unstoppable ever since he started helping you. The two of you looked at today as more of a ‘friendly competition’.

           Little did you know, at some point along the way he fell for you… hard. The moment he discovered he had feelings for you he began to curse himself. Love… it’s a prissy thing to be involved with. Nothing could be more bizarre in a place like Deadman Wonderland. But, try as he might, he still couldn’t get past how he felt. You became his world. There was no way in hell he was going to lay a finger on you.

           Senji looks up to the nearest camera and holds his hands up in surrender. “I forfeit.” He announces nonchalantly. Your eyes shoot wide open and your lips part slightly.

           “It seems we got a fold, folks! Meaning that the winner is… (F/n)! Making this her 17th win in a row!” The announcer exclaims.

           Senji is dragged out of the ring by the guards as you’re left standing there, blinking at what just happened.



                                 

                                                                       ~



           You didn’t watch his televised punishment, didn’t want to. Seeing him in pain was not going to be entertaining. You just spent the time from then until now trying to decipher his actions. Biting your nail, you finally give in and decide to ask Senji yourself.

           Hastily, you crawl out of bed and make your way out of your room. The steps you make down the hall to Senji’s room are hesitant but you press forward none-the-less.

           Once you arrive at his door you’re more than uncomfortable. The lack of confidence causes you to wrap your arms across your chest and look down to your feet. As you uneasily shift from side to side you bite your lip, mentally telling yourself to ‘just do it’.

           You raise a hand and place it against the door giving it a shy knock. You wait a moment… no answer. Closing your eyes, you take a shaky breath. You give it one more nervous try. After another moment and still no answer, you look back down to your feet. You wrap your arms across your chest once again and begin making your way back down the hall.

           “Do you have any idea what time it is?” Senji groggily demands behind you. You stop in your tracks and slightly turn to look at him. “Well? Is there something you need?” He asks, the annoyance in his voice becoming more and more evident.

           “Well I-I…” You hesitantly begin, looking to the side trying to avoid his frustrated glare, “Why did you forfeit?” You finally breathe. You bring yourself to look back at Senji. His gaze had softened but he was visibly taken aback. He hadn’t expected you to confront him about the move he pulled earlier although in hindsight he really should have.

           At this moment he was at a loss for words, completely unable to come up with some quick cover for the true reason of his forfeit. Any fib he gave now would be caught and branded as ‘bullshit’. He was beyond flustered. He had never been the most stable guy around women to begin with, but now that he’s standing completely vulnerable to the one that’s come to mean so much to him, he can say goodbye to any remaining confidence.

           You notice him become distraught and give him a look of concern. “Senji?” You drop your hands to the side and face him fully. You’ve noticed him get like this more and more lately. What for you haven’t the slightest clue. Without thinking, you begin making your way towards him.

           At last, Senji is able to collect himself at least somewhat and put on his tough guy façade. You place a friendly hand on his arm and give him a questioning look. Despite how warm he felt towards the gesture, he simply smacks your hand away and sticks up his nose. “Quit asking dumbass questions. Just go to your room and get out of my face.” And with that, Senji turns and enters his room, shutting the door before you can say anything.

           Instead of being hurt by his actions as one would expect, you just sigh and whisper a disappointed ‘typical’. It was no secret that Senji could be an asshole at times, but whenever moments like this occurred, moments where he was vulnerable, it’s gone the second you try to do something. You turn and begin making your way back to your room. After only a few steps you come to a stop.

           As Senji leans back against his door, he debates in his mind whether or not to chase after you. Suddenly, a light voice breaks him from his thoughts.

           “Senji… I don’t know why you did what you did today…” You harmlessly begin from the other side of the door, “but… please… just don’t sacrifice yourself on my account. I’m not worth your pain.”

           Senji is hanging on every word you speak. Gradually, he slides down against the door until he’s on the floor. On the other side, you’re in the same position.

           Leaning your head back against his door you continue. “I care about you Senji. You can be a real bitch to deal with at times but hey… so can I.”

           Senji gives a silent hum in amusement. He’s always enjoyed the feisty side of you. It was so unexpected. He was really the only one who saw it. For the most part, you were a lovely person who showed kindness to everyone. The only reason you were thrown in here was because your ‘branch of sin’ was discovered. You weren’t a criminal like everyone else. It simply astonished him how you could deal with all the shitheads in this place with a smile on your face.

           “I know this kind of stuff all sounds pathetic to you but hear me out when I say that I’m so grateful to have met you.” You didn’t know why you chose now to express your feelings to Senji but you did anyway. Something inside you urged you to keep going. The reason behind the confession, you have no idea. All you know is, the more you admitted aloud, the happier you felt.

           All the while, Senji is in a state of disbelief and flattery. Internally, he begs you to keep going. His whole life he had little to no camaraderie. Never had he known how amazing it felt having someone who cared about him…someone who actually gave a shit if he was dead or alive.

           On your side, you look up slightly and smile as you run through the memories shared with Senji in your head. “You helped me become stronger. I would have never lasted this long if it wasn’t for you. This place is a nightmare but… when I’m with you everything’s… okay.” You breathe blissfully. Closing your eyes, you take in another deep breath and release it. You turn your head slightly towards his door. “I’ll always have your back Senji. No matter how pissed we are at each other, you can still count on me to be there.”

           Senji’s remaining eye is wide at your words. His body is stiff and he is beyond flustered. His heart pounds in his chest and his face is tomato red. He couldn’t believe what he was hearing. Everything you were saying just about summed up his feelings for you. He was never able to put those kinds of things into words, not like he would say them out loud if he could anyway.

           A sad smile appears on your face as you stand to your feet. Turning so that you’re fully facing his door, you lean in just slightly. “If you haven’t guessed already… I love you, Senji. I don’t know if you heard any of that but either way… I’m glad I said it.”

           Senji had never felt this way before, had never wanted to be with you more than he did right now. He wanted to tell you how he’s going to protect you with everything he’s got. He wanted you to know how glad he was that you had asked him to train you, giving him the chance to get to know you and become close to you. He wants you to know that… he loves you, too.

           With all this going through his mind, he suddenly realizes that he’s just sitting here. Instantly, he shoots up to his feet and opens the door only to find you gone. Senji quickly steps out into the hallway and hastily snaps his head in both directions searching for you. He shuts his eye and slumps his shoulders when he realizes that you’re completely gone.





                                                                       ~



           Senji couldn’t get any sleep that night. He wanted to confront you… he just wasn’t brave enough to knock on your door.

           As soon as he could, he went to the gym and began to let off steam with his intense workouts. He hadn’t seen you all day. He wasn’t sure if he wanted to or not.

           The sound of the gym door opening pulls him from his thoughts. His body freezes when he sees you walk in nonchalantly as you pull your hair back.

           Senji quickly looks away and returns to what he’s doing. “What are you doing here?” He begins harshly. The question causes you to raise an eyebrow at him.

           “I’m here for training?” You giggle harmlessly. He had always loved that giggle of yours. It drove him crazy. Senji just stops what he’s doing and stands up straight. He turns to you and gives you an intense gaze. “What?” You stare back at him, completely entranced by the look he’s giving you.

           Slowly, he takes a step towards you. You respond by taking a step back. This continues until your back is against the wall, leaving you nowhere else to go. Senji places both of his hands against the wall, trapping you. He glances at your lips and stares at them for a moment before leaning in. Then, his lips are on yours for only a brief moment.

           He pulls away because of his lack of sureness at what he’s doing. But, now that he’s gotten a taste, he wants more. He leans in once again and kisses you with more passion. You gently place your hands on the back of his neck and pull him closer. His hands leave their place on the wall and make their way down to your hips. His kiss becomes more and more hungry.

           Once the kiss breaks, you both are left breathless. He lifts one hand and places it against the back of your head, tangling his fingers through your hair. Gently, he pulls your head forward so that your foreheads are resting against each other’s.

           “You heard what I said didn’t you?” You begin shyly.

           He gives an affirmative hum and pulls away. He returns to his set of weights and continues his workout. “I don’t give a shit what you say, (F/n)… If we have to face each other again, I’m forfeiting that time too.” You stare at him for a moment then a small smile tugs at the corners of your lips. You don’t expect Senji to say things like ‘I love you’ or ‘you complete me’ or do things like show up at your room door with flowers and chocolates… that’s just not his style. But this… this was his way of performing an act of love.

           

Finally! I made a Senji x Reader!
I mean let's face it... his personality was begging for one... well at least to me it was...
My musical inspiration for this chapter would be Black Sun from Beyond: Two Souls, I picture it playing during the reader's confession.
I hope you guys liked it! I tried so hard to keep Senji in character and still make him have feelings... If you didn't like it I sincerely apologize and you can have some of my extra fruit gushers...
Hope you guys have an epic day and an extraordinary life!
                    ~Emma

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Kyukyu1004's avatar
It looks like it says "Dank" above his eyebrow